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Monday, December 29, 2008

my heart is bleeding, if only you could see. my heart is breaking, if only you could hear.its falling apart, something i fear.. boy, dont do this to me. im so begging you. i'll leave you for a while and you can take your time to think, but i'll sure come back one day to prove to you that i wont give up. i'll still try to fix this up cos it begin from me but i hope it wont end from you. i just hope your love is still the same cos my love for you has never change. you dont have to forgive me but just gimme a second chance and i'll try to make things better than the past. this, i promise you.


yours truly;

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baby, kadang kadang kte tk tau ape akn jadi in the future. just like what happen to us in the past. i didnt know that im gonna fall for you after 3 months i tried so hard enough. and now, i truly love you with all my heart. tapi ble kte gadoh gyni, i takot sangat kehilangan u. seriously, ble u ckp gytu i nanges rabak rabak. i tk penah nanges smpai mate bengkak. i tk penah nanges all the way smpai 2 jam. sumpah u , dgn amin tk penah seyy gytu. and now,i realise how much you meant alot to me. mcmne i nk hidop tanpe u kalau u tinggalkn i? i tk tau mcmne lagy nk pujok u. i tau maaf i dh tk berharge buat u tapi bagy i atleast 2nd chance. i tk kesah u tknk maafkn i. but gimme 2nd chance and i'll prove to you i'll change. i janji tk buat bende bdh yg blh risk kn relationship kte lagy. i rindu u sngt. i tkleh tdo.. ble i ingat ape u sent pat i, i teros nanges tk tau asl. its killing me so much. tapi i tahan je.. uuu, smpai ble kte nk gyni? i tk sanggop lagy. i terlalu rindu pat u. i tknk kehilangan u, i takot. btol btol takot. i cume mintak u bagy i satu chance je. tkkn u nk lepaskn i? its such a waste. tlg fiker balek.. pls.




Whenever I cried you would always make me feel like you would change the world if you could, so it couldn't hurt me anymore. As day passes by, I'm getting used to it. How about if one day you have to go and leave me...And being away from me is beyond your control. Should I expect you to fight for our love? Will you be with me still?

One of the hardest things in life is having words in your heart you can't utter from your mouth. Tears are words the heart can't say that's why I just simply cry...cry out loud til my tears run dry.

I wish I had the guts to walk away and forget about what we had. But, I can’t because I know you won't come after me, and I guess that's what hurts the most. That eventhough how much you love me, you will never run after me and even you will be willing to give me up for everybody's sake. I can close my eyes to things I don’t want to see, but I can’t close my heart to things I don’t want to feel. It hurts...its hurts a lot...it hurts more than you can imagine...

Do you know why I am still with you?

Today I begin to understand what love must be. When we are parted, each of us feel the lack of the other half of ourselves. We are incomplete like a book in two volumes of which the first has been lost. That's what I imagine love to be: incompleteness in absence. I'll be incomplete without you. My love for you is true that I'm willing to sacrifice even it takes years to cry.

My love for you is a journey. Starting at forever and ending at never! I really love you from the bottom of my heart.

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Saturday, December 27, 2008

Firstly, i miss school .
secondly , i miss nur hanisah bte nordin . <3
thirdly, i miss 2n2.
fourth, i miss muhd satria bin salimi. <3
fifth, i miss fiedianty bte hamdan.(:


haiya, i cant wait for 2nd january! seriously, its so killing me . so, last 2 days i change phone again cos that N82 spoil. -.= and i just found out this song from sixth sense, tanpa and tak bisa memilihmu. you guys should hear it. very meaningful to me. so, tuesday going out with old friends. yeyeh! :D i miss all of them. then this friday, school liao. yessaaa! today, woke up at 8.30 and met tutik at wdls mart mcd then we went to cresent park then plan about next year duty roster with gekmin and junkang then fattah come and i and tutik hide somewhere to put the candles and light them while junkang try to distract fattah. then tutik and me came from behind and sang bday song. hahaahah! quite boring uh cos the rest of DC members cant make it. my mum and the rest of my family went to someone's wedding invitation. i should follow them sia. haisss..



sayang, i mintak maaf. seriously, i tkleh tido the past few days. its really killing me. u tau i tkleh hidop tanpe u. please, bagy i last chance. just one more chance. i akn perbaiki sumenye balek. we cn start a fresh. i tau salah i, sume nye. maafkan i, i tkleh jadi perfect utk u. i btol btol mintak maaf. i menyesal sngt. tolong jgn buat gyni. i dh tk sanggop nk nanges lagy. i tk sanggop nk imagine kalau u lepaskn i. i tk blh hidop mcm ni. ni saturday, ktenye 7th mth. i hrp u fiker baek baek. kte dh go through up and down same same. tkmo mcm ni pls.. maafkn i.. untuk sekali ni je.

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Thursday, December 25, 2008

today is fattah's birthday. Ystrday is yasir's birthday and the day before ystrday is rafiq's birthday.. So, happy birthday guys! And merry christmas too! Today my best cousin, anis <3 and family all came to my house then my uncle invited me to east coast park, i didnt want to go bcos firstly, i want to spend time with anis and secondly, tmrw planned to follow syariza all to east coast park but my mum didnt allow. She say, go and follow my uncle or i dont get to go tmrw. -.= so, i went to east coast park with my uncle and cousins, and got home around 6plus. Im so tired right now. Ystrday went to bed at around 1.3o in the mrning after playing int. Then wish yasir happy bday all then msg with him fr awhile then say gdnight to sayang and went to lala-land straight. I feel so tired right now. I think i want to take a rest for awhile then play int again. Heh. Bye, friends! (:

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Wednesday, December 24, 2008

so, today woke up in the morning and received a message frm tutik, to meet at cwp for something. Heh. Then went to toilet and take a bath. Then watch my fav drama before i get ready and leave the house. Took 913 and met tiara, then talk talk then she alight. Afterwards, ibrahim board the bus. Then drop at wdls int. Took the escalator, then ibrahim call me. We both meet tutik at mcd. Then we went and bought present for someone. After shopping, slack at banquet. Then went to civic before going home. Then my mum call and want to go marsiling. So, i took 913 then syg msg want to meet after his football briefing. So, i ask him to meet me at marsiling with my parents all. Then at 4 plus , he came then talk talk and laugh laugh with my parents. Then otw home, i wanted to pee urgently but the toilet was fucking dirty like i felt throwing out my food. Is that how s'porean act? So irresponsible. Haiya. Okay, im going off. Bye,peeps !

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Monday, December 22, 2008

ohmygawwwwd! Im so tired. Cn i sleep? Nah, im waiting fr reen to come my hse. Slept at 3am ystrday and woke up at 830? Wth. My mum was like, "fira, wake up. Im going out soon." then what has it got to do with me? Then she continue, "pls, take care of your small bro." walanneh. Holiday has been so suckish. 10 more days and this misery will end! I cant wait for school reopen rather than rotting at home and do nothing. I miss hwk and teacher's nagging. Wahaha. Sound so weird but thats the fact. But whats worst, i miss my boyfriend more. ): anyway, i heard that there's no more stock for 3NA. Serious ah? Cool then. I'll come to school empty handed on the 2nd jan. Haha. Ouh ouh, and imagine my 7th mthsary is like in a week more?! Its been nearly 7mths and i still think that im dreaming. Ouh, i nvr thought that, this twist of fate seems so content. Hha, and nw currently im listening more to english songs. Suddenly, malay songs sounds so booooring! Okay, so here's azureen beside me with her crunchie. -.=


Imissyou. Imissyou. Imissyou. Imissyou. Imissyou. I miss you.
IMISSYOU,BABY BOY!

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hellooo,lovely earthlings! Gosh its been weeks since i've nt publish any post. I've been so busy this few wks. School's starting yaw! I cant wait to meet my friends and new classmates. Ouh, but i've nt bought my books yet. Bleahh. Maybe this wk. Planned to go jogging with my bacens before my stamina drop. I've nt been jogging/exercise fr two mths. Ouh dear. Ystrday, i met my dearest emilia. I miss her god damn much and planned to meet anna next wed. Yeah! Ok, guys. I've gtg. Tc!

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