18 may 2008 .
TODAY IS 18th .
today is 18th . and yet , we still have not talk to each other . why , honey , why you became this way ? is my mistake that really really big ? i didnt mean it . please dont do this to me . i cant bear it anymore . fyi , im hurt deep inside when you do this to me . today is our 9 mthsary . i wonder , do you even remember ? and i should be happy today cos we hv gone so far and 3 more mths is our 1 yr anniversary . but all i did today is just staring at your photos , reading back your smses and hearing sad songs . im just like a dying soul . i wanted to cry but i cant cos my tears had gone dry . you still didnt reply my msgs . why you became like this ? dont you love me anymore ?
syg , nape u buat gini ?
kalau u nk punish i pon , cukop2 laa tuh .
i tau i salah tapi i dh belajar frm my mistakes .
i terseksa .
please , i had enough .
i fhm u nye perasaan .
i tau ape u rase .
thats why i didnt want to tell you the truth the first place .
i tau u ade mcm2 lagi problem .
i fhm tapi u tkleh binget2 gini .
its nt gonna solve any of your problem .
hais .
sometimes i wonder ,
if you love me as much as i do .
cos if u do , u wont let me be this way .
kalau u dh tk syg i lagi ,
just let me go eventhough
i cant bear losing you .
what more can i do if you dont love me anymore ?
love cannnot be force .
but i really wish that you never even think
of breaking up cos you once promise me
that you wont leave me or hurt me .
u tau i sygkn u .
u tau i tkleh hidop tanpa u .
jadi , tolong jgn buat gini .
kalau u marah pat i pon ,
tolong laa jgn smpai gini sekali .
i tk sanggop lagi .
please dont hang the relationship like this .
its killing me ; so deeply .
might as well take a knife and stab me .
i rather die than feeling this pain .
i dh tk tau nk buat ape lagi .
no words could describe my feelings .
kalau u pat tempat i ,
mesti u pon susah hati .
tapi i tau u tkkn fhm sbb
u tk rase ape yg i rase skrg .
i cume nk u tau
ape pon u nye decision ,
dont regret it later on .
and i pon nk u tau ,
cinta i utk u tkkn penah hilang smpai bile2 .
i janji .
p.s: please , let me die in your arm .