i cant stand this animore.Whatever i do , it reminds me of you . Every morning when i walked pass the tuition centre , i'll remember the days you fetch me there and we'll walk to school together . Everytime i take the lift , i'll remember the hugs and kisses you used to give me . When i see 913 or 912 bus , i'll remember the times i used to send you home . When nisa grab my hand , i'll remember those times we used to hold hands . Everywhere i walk , i'll remember the time we used to take that path . When Syariza or Maisarah pinch my cheek , i'll remember the times we used to pinch each other cheek . When i read back your smses , i'll mis the moments you called me 'syg' . When i see the picture that Syariza took for us at the admiralty mrt bus station , i'll remember the times you used to look into my eyes . Its really killing me , amin . Why you let me be this way ? I've said im sorry , But why didnt you reply my messages ? For all the smses that i sent you , i hope you could reply to one of them . But till now i hear no news from you . its hard to deal with the pain im going through but im doing it for you ; just for you because i love you . Everytime i received a message , i hope it will be you - to say that you've forgive me or at least to say that you've cool down . But it will alwaes be some other person . Im dying inside , honey . I look at you at school , i'll feel so guilty for lying to you and i just hope i could turn back time . But after all , im a human being and i cant be perfect . I saw you didnt eat during break after the Mt LC paper . You were lying on the table and staring into space . I wish i could go to you and ask you whats wrong . If you're sick , i wish to feel the same pain as you do . My heart cries to see you that way . Everytime when i close me eyes , i'll see you and i hope you'll stay there and never fade away . When i called you out in my heart , i wish and realli wish you could hear it . So that you'll know how much i realli miss you . Please dont be like this . I cant keep on living this way . What else must i do so that yuou'll know I really need you ? Cry you a pool of tears ? Beg you ? Tell me so that you'll be satisfied . I just cant go on this way , baby . If one day you'll decide to let me go , i'll take it for the sake of your happiness . Cause seeing you happy is enough to make me happy too . Eventhough deep inside i'll be crying . But whatever that happen , i'll never let you go cause i realli do love you ..
p.s : Im sorry im not perfect .
(10 more days , baby )