ouh well , such a long time i have not update my blog . and i miss it . heh . what do i have ? hmm .

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this date only reminds me of one thing . the day he took away my smile and my heart broke into a thousand pieces . so , what ? i've get over him . eventhough , sometimes it hurts to remember or miss him . especially the times he said he love me . argh , whatever . crapshit .

it was miss calmela's last day of school today and tomorrow is teachers' day . the class and mr andy force miss calmela to come the next day . and she agreed . so , i bought all the stuffs to decorate class for teachers' day . cake , snacks all done . only to put up the ball0ons and stuff . so , i stayed back after english remedial . alif , rafiq , rahman , danish , azizul and some other boys help me out . i and joan went to woodlands mart to buy the wrapping paper and stuff as it was not enough . after decorating the class , i and joan went to woodlands mart again to print out the class photo to paste on the card for miss calmela . after that , i went home straight .

woke up early at 5am . bath and had breakfast . mum was cooking fried rice for me to bring to school for party later . maisarah bringing mee goreng and afiq bringing mee siam goreng . met sarah , weeza and alif and the carpark near school and met joan on the way . yasir and the rest has not reach school so i told joan to take the key . later , classmates come . the bell rang and i rush to the gate - got duty mah . after duty , assemble to class and we went for the aces walk thingy thing . then went back to class . yasir and alif was making the syrup then it spilt . i and hafeez rushed to find a mop bcos we were afraid , miss calmela would just come at any moment . luckily , i found a mop at the girls toilet , first floor near dnt room .we had prepared everything and the lights was off . everybody surrounded the entrance door and holding a popper . then , miss calmela came with miss huang and mr andy .

we ate and cut the cake . it was delicious , man . mmmmm . . later , nazri showed the video . it was pictures from sec 1 all the way to sec 2 . i can take it anymore and just put my head at maisarah lap and cry . after the video , i asked maisarah to take a picture with me and miss calmela . that was went i hug teacher and cried all i want . i will miss her , i know . she said something to me but i didnt really hear cos i was fucking sad okay . some of the class was like laughing at me especially people like rahman , some join me in and cried hidely , some just eat and eat . haha . and rafiq was like -- "ehk , fira . relax lah ."

okay , fast forward .

after school , went mcd . family mcd dah tutop . now , i dont know what wan is going to do . he is probably going to find a new name and throw people he doesnt like . pfft . leceh sak gyni . satu satu nk buat perangai . family dgn family pon nk gadoh . after the meeting , i went smbwg pri . met no one . lalalala .

around 2.30pm , went home and siap siap to meet tutik . we plan to go queensway shopping centre and do that discipline commitee jersey . it was fabulous . i cant wait ! haha .

nothing much ; bought a new LCD tv .

went to geylang at night . shopping here and there . so , this year theme colour is yellow and white . my favourite colour - yellow . and satria's favourite colour - white . bought that bag i wanted and two dress ! yes yes yes . at last . now , only left for new skinnies and blue cardigen and that flat black shoes . hehe .

and i want to confess something and i must say this : i start to LOVE him . <3

i know im not dreaming or lying .

i do love him and i'll learn to love him even more ;

SATRIA .