everything has ended , and it will never start again . you're with someone now . i hope you'll last long with her . seeing you happy is enough to make me happy too . when you ask for break , i was happy . happy to know that i would be free against the sufferings from the time you didnt reply my messages then it hurt me . but deep down my heart , it was fucking painful . i felt like crying , but i cant . all i did was laughing . laughing at myself for being too stupid to love you for the past 9 months without stopping . im totally hurt but im not naive . i know im strong . i can never describe how i feel to lose you for the second time . its so unfair for me . you keep on toying my feelings - what do you think i am , a soft toy ? and i keep on crying for you - ouh , this is not a free show for me . but still , until today , my love for you never fade . but do you think its fair for me ? you make me fall deeply for you , but then you left and chose to go with her . how could you ? i go around and tell people that i've get over you but the fact is NO ! im actually torturing myself . everytime i think about you , i will force myself to think some other things . its hard for me to forget you because each time i managed to forget you , the more memories would come and haunt me . so , tell me how would i want to forget you ? all my love ang sacrifices are wasted . you said you loved me , but why did you leave me ? you promise me this and that , but why did you broke it ? well , maybe this is just my fate . what god has planned for us is unpredictable . i know you're happy with her and i hope she'll never hurt your feelings . amin , thanks for the wonderful memories , you left for me .
memories of firamin ; 180807-280508
it will stay .
when i first met you , i thought 'what a nerd' .
when i started to know you , i began to fall for you .
when we became closer , i started to care .
when we became lovers , i couldnt imagine life without you here .
when we broke up , you broke my heart .
when we tried again , i saw it as a new start .
when you broke my heart for the second time , i realised you were never mine .
and now im lying here , trying to heal my heart and forget the memories .