omg!kiwak sak.im farking embarrass.i just got to know that amin read the whole page of my blog.i tot he was just browsing true.but no!he read evryting.EVRYTING!i wish i've told hym that my blog gt hack.shud i just stop writing abt him?yes.i shud.hey hold on.so what?this is my blog.MINE!fark care ar.so what if he noe that i still love him?aftall,its a fact.why shud i hide my feelings frm him?aftall,i hv the right to love anyone.if he dont love me,its his problem.and if i still love him,its my own problem.ryte?yeah.ok,change topic.today is hari raya haji.when i heard the 'takbir',i feel like crying sia.and,i just found out that i start to love acoustic sings lyke 'tiger lily' by matchbook romance.and 'a lonely september' by plain white t's.but jiwang are betta in the end.haha.i lyke that song by rihanna,'cry'.andand,i tink the best screamo song is by MCR,'i dont love you'.and im farking hapi!my bro gt posted at canberra sec.at last,freedom!but i heard my mum still wanna appeal to adss.wth.then,last monday,171207,i went to ms sum's farewell party with her own class.i felt farking xtra.hanisah and fie laa,force me to go.and i felt so weak when i saw amin wore that same black t-shirt he use when we went to the movies on the 081107.it made me flashback evrything.whatever it was,i gt to be strong.andand,im so pissed off.my mp3 earpiece spoit.luckily gt my phone.
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today's entry is to hear frm what other's say when we broke up.
nisah:kau tk seharusnya nangis hanya kerana amin!aku phm kau kecewa sbb die mintak break.tp,u hv to rmbr..he DUMP u!do u tink he deserves to be cried on?
my cmmt:dump me?i dun tink so.im hapi wif hym most of the tyme.oni the last end.
fie:alhamdullilah kau dh break ngan die.tk ya tgk kwn aku suffer lg.
my cmmt:huh?ape kau ?!tkya tgk aku suffer lg?break ngan die akn buat aku lg suffer.
reen:jgn sedeh lg ar.
my cmmt:sape tk sedeh siot.senang ar ckp.
emi:frget hym ar.laki gini tk gune.
my cmmt:dont talk much ar.u oso dump ur boifren.
anna:fira.jgn sedeh lg ar.nnt aku knalkn kau ngan satu bdk ni ehk.name die imran.
my cmmt:no thx ar.kalau laki tuh exactly mcm what and who amin is blh jgk.tp kalau tk,kirem salam je laa ehk.lgpon,aku tknk betray emi sbb die ade ckp die suke imran dulu.
rynaldy:move on laa.
my cmmt:move on?hw to move on?if irah leave u,u cn easily move on or nt?argh!useless asking u this.irah wont leave u.
irah:sigh u dont sadsad ok.stay strong.cheer up ok?
my cmmt:hw to cheer up and hw to stay strong?my lyfe wouldnt be the same anymre.
hafiz:camne kau nk lupekn die kalau kau asyik tules die je pt blog?
my cmmt:btol jgk ckp kau tp suke ati aku laa.
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amin:i want a break up..my decision is final..
my cmmt:ur decision is final?then,hw bout my mine?haiss.i cant force u.nvm laa.may u find ur hapiness.
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if any of u feel offended wif my cmmt,im sry.i didnt mean anything.
rihanna - cry
I'm not the type to get my heart broken
I'm not the type to get upset and cry
Cause i never leave my heart open
Never hurts me to say goodbye
Relationships don't get deep to me
Never got the whole in love thing
And someone can say they love me truely
But at the time it didn't mean a thing
My mind is gone, i'm spinning round
And deep inside, my tears i'll drown
I'm losing grip, what's happening
I stray from love, this is how I feel
This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now i'm, in this condition
And i've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry
Did it happen when we first kissed
Cause it's hurting me to let it go
Maybe cause we spent so much time
And I know that it's no more
I shoulda never let you hold me baby
Maybe why i'm sad to see us apart
I didn't give to you on purpose
Gotta figure out how you stole my heart
My mind is gone, i'm spinning round
And deep inside, my tears i'll drown
I'm losing grip, what's happening
I stray from love, this is how I feel
This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now i'm, in this condition
And i've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry
How did I get here with you, i'll never know
I never meant to let it get so, personal
After all I tried to do, stay away from loving you
I'm broken hearted, I can't let you know
And I won't let it show
You won't see me cry
This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now i'm, in this condition
And i've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry
This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now i'm, in this condition
And i've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry
All my life...