goodby, mr. s.

its going to be the end of yr 2007.

well,many things did happen especially

this was the ferst yr i gt into

secondary school.

so,let me re-cap my love story. (:

last yr in december,i msn with izzuan.

he was my ex-pri school mate.

this yr he is in 2e3.

we chat frm 6+ in the afternoon

all the way to 5.30am!

that time he was attached to my bestie,anna.

as we were chatting i dunno what

gt into me that i felt that i hv fall fr him.

yes.

so izzuan if u're reading this,
let me confess that i hv feelings fr u since
we chatted that time.
izzuan isnt cute,isnt hansem
but he hv a kind hart that most guys doesnt hv.
so guys out there,sori if u all feel offended.
and to u izzuan,dun be
so 'kembang' that i praise u ok.
what's more , u'll nvr expect.
the next day,they broke up!
i dunno why anna did that.
i pity him.
he dont deserved to be hurt.
well,actually..
im hapi!
but i feel guilty laa.
u see,izzuan must be sad bout the break up.
but me?
im feeling hapi..
like so wicked.
so,i decided to frget him.

mths past..
and i dont knw hw i can fall fr my own CSM.
yes.junxing.
he is cute,damn funny but like 'mat rep'.
haha. (:
and i found out that he like iffah frm sec 2.
so,i decided to frget him in the end.
as the days past..
there was this time when i online and evryone offline except fr aminudin.
so,i chat with him.
as we were chatting,we exchange number.

i ask fr his number ferst.
that moment,i really gt no feelings fr him ok.
i ask his number fr the sake of fun.
one day,afta school..
ard 4+ in th eafternoon,

i was farking boring since shafiq,

a fren i knew thru anna lost his hp.

shafiq and i was like besties.

we were close.

almost each day we sms each other.

shafiq admire anna.

so,we always talk abt anna in our msgs.

then,i strolled my contact list

and stop at this name;

amin hp.

without tinking much,i sms him.

and he replied!

i frgot what we talk abt.

but i'll nvr frgot the time

when he confess to me that he admire me.

i was farking shock.

as the days past,

i begin to feel sumthing grow in my hart fr him.

yes,it was love.
but im nt sure so
i dont dare admit anyting to anyone.

one day,i realised i really hv fall fr amin.

so,i decide to tell him the truth.

but nt in a straignt frwerd way laa.

did u noe?

he ask me fr stead!

exactly at 7.14pm,

on the 130707.

but me being the most stupid gerl,

told him to gimme 48hrs before

i give the final decision.

i was confused coz i realised i still hv feelings fr my ex,salihin.

nisah make me realised,

there's no use turning back.

so,i tot of accepting him.

but tings turn the other way round.

it happen wen irah ask nady,amin's fren

if amin really ask me fr stead.

then nady ask amin if what he heard

frm irah was true.

nady didnt noe abt all this.

and nady told that maybe amin gt gf liao.

but i dont believe him.

coz i trust amin.

wen amin noe that rynaldy knew bout it,

he sort of reject me.

he said he's gonna ask me

fr stead again some other day again.

each day,i waited like hell

but nothing happen.

then,i gave up.

a few weeks later,

i found out frm sarah that her fren,

zahidah,recently stead with amin.

i was pissed off fr the whole day.

few days later,

nisah told me that

amin sms her to ask

if she noe whoever who hv feelings fr him.

nisah told,it was me.

then,amin also say that he love me ard 80%.

a few minutes later,

amin sms me to ask whether izit true,

what nisah says,that im willing to stead with

him eventhough if he plays timer..

i didnt expect that nisah

gonna tell amin what ive told her.

but im nt angry at her.

so,i said:

yes.as long as he be fair.

and that was when he told me the truth that

he had gf ready.

and he doesnt wanna play timer.

coz zahidah is a kind gerl.

i told him that i cn wait fr him.

i waited and then i gave up again!

it was on the 170807.

it was 10+ in the nite.

i was already in lalla-land

when nisah called my hse.

she says:"fira,amin sms aku.die tanye

asl kau tk reply msg die."

and i said:"huh?aku ngah tdo ar.

lgpon,pp8 aku low.

kau ckp ar,aku top-up bsk.

nnt aku sms die."

so on the 180807,was when we became couple.

the story goes on.

i still rmbr he lost his hp

one day b4 the fasting mth.

i waited fr him fr a mth to gt a new hp.

i didnt regret waiting

coz i'll regret mre if i dont give myself a chance to know him betta.

i oso rmbr it was the ferst time

we had misunderstanding.

he was damn furious when i sort of

criticise his bugs bunny.

haha.

since we broke up,

i realised that bug bunny

are aftall much more kiuter

than winnie the pooh.

there was one time when

i stop by at 7-11 and

saw a cartoon of bugs bunny

hugging his gf near the glass door.

i was holding my tears by then.

coz i know if

he was the bug bunny,

the gf would nvr be me.

i hope whoever his gf is nw,

he'll be hapi.

maybe i wasnt a nice gf fr him.

amin,if ever i could turn back the time

i wish i've nvr knew u,

nvr met u or fall in love with u.

its nt that i hate u

but frm the beginning

i hv this feeling that im gonna lost u.

and sumting i fear fr,did happen.

maybe it was just my fate..